The ongoing return to work
Two more 4-day weeks at work have gone quite well - this is the Tue+Thu afternoons off model. I have got quite a lot done, some of it urgent and important, without getting especially stressed. I'm not as fast or as good as I'm "used" to being [as in, pre-cancer], but I'm being good enough, I think. I have another two 4-day weeks booked, next week with Friday off, and the following week with Monday off. This will let me find out which pattern is easier.
I expect I will book another run of 4-day weeks after that though. I'm still spending large chunks of my weekend days in bed, and rather more of my weekday evenings falling asleep early or sleepily hitting refresh on things without getting either OU study or Duolingo done, or even much reading. I am really fed up of slow-motion OU essay crises, but I'm in the middle of another one, basically because I was too tired to study for too much of the last
month. Also, I use the app Regularly
to track various self-care and housework tasks (which all need
doing at some point - we're not talking make-work here) and I'm in the red on an awful lot there.
So I'm regarding that as great honking warning signs that I'm running too close to my limits. I plan to keep on doing 4-day weeks until I get my study hours back where they should be, and my Regularly dashboard back to mostly yellow and green. I have enough leave left, together with things already booked, to do this until September, so I may as well take advantage.Physical fitness
I had my second session of beginner's T'ai Chi today, and I'm really enjoying it. It feels very gentle but focused; I've learned I can do it in a comfortable tunic and leggings, which is what I wear a lot of the time at the moment, and it's gentle enough I don't need to change.
I'm managing the cycling to work via nursery, and walking home via school okay at the moment. I still get out of breath but no longer as boiling hot; I think I'm gradually getting faster, and it's becoming more routine. On Monday I cycled to the hospital and back from work for an appointment, and on Wednesday from nursery to Hills Road and back on top of everything else, and wasn't completely flattened as a result. Even so, like work, I think I'm doing enough right now, and shouldn't look to add anything else until study/Regularly tasks are under control. Medical
Monday's test was a bone marrow sample. It was moderately painful and I needed longer to recover before I felt able to go back to work than I would have predicted. On the good side, they told me they got a good sample without apparently having to work too hard for it, unlike certain of the previous samples I've had taken. I see the consultant on 10th May (it got moved back, I think because my test was later than originally planned) and as far as I know I won't hear anything before then. All the external evidence is reassuring though.
... and this has taken me long enough to write and I need to do another chapter of study before I fall asleep.